ADHD Paralysis and Art

It’s just me vs my thoughts at this point.

One of my many challenges when I get back home during the summer is my combative obligations and artistic drive.

When I get home I often have 9,001 ideas that I want to pursue, and I find that I rarely ever do them. Either having to take care of household commitments, my own chores, personal care, or lesson planning for the summer camp often eats away enough of my time where I don’t have time to do something artistically productive on my own.

I’ve noticed that Minecraft is my biggest creativity killer. When I’m at school, I have ze-ro drive to play it. But, at home I will play for 8+ hours like it’s nothing. I chalk this up to me having more cognitive power for creativity, but when I play Minecraft for that long, often my creativity is then drained for days after.

Back to ADHD paralysis, when I have so many creative ideas, obligations, and the occasional Minecraft induced art-block, nothing worthwhile gets done. For example, I had the spur of the moment idea to take photos of my yard with the smoke from the Canada Wildfires and a thunderstorm yesterday, and I did. However, there were 16 photos, only 4 of which were different enough to use, and those 4 were so badly underexposed that they’re useless. I think things like this is why I just oftentimes don’t make art, failure, while I understand it’s importance in learning, I just say “Why did I even bother?” half the time.

(I feel I should mention that the photo for this blog post is a photo of the hail in my garden, all the white specks are hail)